Feel like I should be more on top of things with all of this time (3 hours a day) I have to myself. Imagined myself getting a lot more artwork done, blogging more, & more time for photoshop. Seems though that the days have, instead, become a mesh of errands easier done alone and a lot of journaling in order to get to that place of some understanding and clarity in order to move forward. I find that is just one of the cycles of my life. Discontent-lots of journaling and reading-clarity & direction-movement forward.
My recent bout with discontent has lead me to realize that it's time to sort and weed. So I have begun to look at old thoughts and ideas of what I thought life should be like or what I wanted my life to be like and weed out the ones that no longer serve me.
I don't know if this is all coming on because I am turning 40 in a few months, or because I just weaned my youngest while my oldest is beginning to show signs of puberty, or just a combination of the above along with unknown sources as well...but the reason why is not important. It's here and I intend to ride it out. It scares the hell out of me while exciting me at the same time. Makes me feel alive and a part of my life. Making choices instead of just getting through the day.